Another week and weekend has come and gone. With the limited
time that I have left here, I can’t help but starting to feel a little
melancholic about this whole experience. Though there have been some hard days,
and times where I have missed home so much, I cannot begin to describe how
weird it will be to pack up and leave here. For good. I have to be careful when
I say this around my teachers, who have realized that I have three weeks left
teaching and have asked me how I feel about it. This leads to a very nostalgic
discussion: I am so excited to get home to be with my family and friends, but
again, there’s something about la France
and particularly la Provence that
always calls me back. When I say to them that it’s weird to think I will never
be back in Apt, their response is always a smile with a sly “on sait jamais!”- you never know! Then,
we proceeded to talk about my constant worry once I return to the states: trouver un boulot*. Getting a teaching
job in France is completely different than getting one in the states – you
don’t even have an interview most times! Just fill out an online application
and they send you an e-mail telling you whether you got the job or not. Say
what?! They even told me they wished there was an interview process. I just
don’t understand that – how can you be sure that someone is an adequate
educator without ever meeting them? Bizarre,
bizarre….
With my limited time left here, I have been trying to
overload on everything français, from reading Harry Potter and the Chamber of
Secrets in French to watching How I Met Your Mother in French to pushing myself
into random conversations with teachers, workers at the school, shop owners and
servers at the restaurant, I realize that I have limited time to continue to
practice the language in a native place. Plus, it helps that wherever I go,
random strangers on the street will always flash me a smile and dit a little “bonjour!” That’s small town France for you!**
Another sunset view from the Apt apt. (yes, my Apt apartment) |
I even pushed myself to do something that any foreign
language speaker knows is hard and nerve-racking task: talk on the phone in
French. I know what you are thinking, I speak French… so why can’t I do it on the phone?! Many factors affect this (not
being able to see the person, body language, bad phone connection leaving
voices to be mumbled and incomprehensible, etc), but it is one of the hardest skills to master
in my opinion. For shutting down all of my accounts, it was necessary for me to
speak to the customer service of each one of my providers, to get information
on how to go about doing this. Unfortunately, all these companies in France
have their employees sign contracts where they cannot speak in English to help
customers - even when they are having trouble understanding and you might be
able to help them better in another language. Only French conversations can be
had. Knowing this in advance, I prepared myself and hoped that this
conversation would go as smoothly as one I would have with someone at a store.
My phone call with SFR (my internet company) was as seamless as could be – she
could understand me, and I could understand her. It was actually quite a lovely
conversation. After that, with my spirits lifted, I decided to call Virgin (my
phone company). This conversation was a little bumpier, but still a lot better
than how it would have been when I first arrived! Either way, getting over that
feeling of being timid is hard for me – in English and even more in a foreign
language! I am more than proud of what I have accomplished and continue to
accomplish as I grow within this language.
I took advantage of this weekend being my last true weekend
“at home” in Apt. On Friday, I spent the day laying out and cleaning. I did
venture out of the apartment to get some new movies and stop to get some kebab.
After a nice conversation with the owner, I got out my money to pay for my meal
and he told me “non, non, mademoiselle,
c’est mon cadeau pour toi!”*** Though I felt weird about this, he insisted,
reminding me of the little town atmosphere this place has and how a little
conversation can go a long way. Then, like a true American, I went to the
theater and watched Monuments Men. What a great film, filled with patriotism
and a little bit of Matt Damon speaking French (albeit a little rough pronunciation, but still)! I couldn’t help but cry for my
homeland a bit…
It's okay, Matt - sometimes I screw up French too! |
Saturday, I went to the market for one of the last times. I
ran into many students, and one of the teachers I work with, Marc. Again, these
are only things that can happen in such a small town as this – I can never go
anywhere without seeing a teacher or students from the lycée. Also, I heard A
LOT of other Anglophones around, lots of Brits and Americans. Tourist season must
be starting in Provence! With all the things I bought, I might have had a near
anxiety attack and quickly did a test-pack of everything I have here… needless
to say I haven’t done my April-May travels and with two checked bags, I am
still overweight…. guess I will be shipping some things home! Then, I enjoyed a
nice light dinner and watched A Good Year, filmed right here in the Luberon in
Provence. I recognized many of the panoramic views of the little, hillside
villages that are on my stomping grounds, including Gordes, Bonnieux, and Lacoste.
But what was surprising was at the very end, while the credits rolled, they
listed a special thanks to the people living in all of the towns that were
filmed in the movie. I was more than surprised to see little, unexceptional Apt
on the list! Now I will have to rewatch that movie a few more times and try to
pinpoint which scene/s where filmed here in my French home.
And Marion Cotillard is in it - a fav French actress. Need I say more? |
Sunday, one of my private lesson clients Laure and her
husband Julien took me to the market at Isle-sur-la-Sorgue. Though I had
visited this wonderful town before, through their knowledge and guidance, I saw
it through completely different eyes. I learned so much about la Venise Provencal****, walking through
antique shop after antique shop, and vendor after vendor in the marché. Before going today, I was not
sure whether we would speak in English or in French together, as all of our
communication up until now has been in English. It was a welcomed change to be
expected to speak in French, even when at times I had difficulty in expressing
my ideas, they would help me with giving me a new expression or words to use.
Even so, these moments didn’t happen too frequently, meaning that my time from
9am-5pm was nearly entirely spoken in French. I know that many of my readers
might be saying “Becca, you live in France – isn’t this something you do everyday?” The simple answer: no. Since I am required to speak
English with students at work, and with the professors when in front of
students, I mostly have found that I go some days speaking English more than
French. Although I have had several opportunities to speak through meals and
other gatherings with my teachers, this was a nice change as it was different
people with different accents, for quite a long period of time. Their
generosity and kindness was something that I hadn’t expected, et je ne l’oublierai jamais – I will never
forget it!
Antiques everywhere! |
La Sorgue! |
Laure and I in front of the many water wheels, or roules, that are scattered throughout Isle-sur-la-Sorgue. |
The emblem of Isle-sur-la-Sorgue with its latin motto which when translated means the city holds strong against enemies. |
Notre Dame des Anges - the church. We peeked in so I could get a look, even though there was a service happening, what a beautiful interior! |
More antiquing along the Sorgue - anyone want a cup of tea on the dining set in the water on the right there? |
La Sorgue est partout! |
They took me to a lovely Chinese restaurant, which is
honestly something I have been craving for a long time, as the one in Apt is
SUPER expensive (and kinda sketchy looking) so I haven’t tried it. So when they
said they felt bad because they didn’t take me to somewhere typically French, I
said it is no problem. After, we went to their beautiful home and met their dog
Uta, further making this day more amazing, as I got to have play time with un chien! After, they took me to a park
where the Sorgue river splits into two parts, a well-known place called le Partage des Eaux. After, we headed up
a windy, skinny road deep in the countryside and visited the village of
Saumane-de-Vaucluse. Known for a chateau that is privately owned at the top of
the village, it boasts magnificent views over the countryside while keeping its
quaint, white-washed stone houses stacked in solemnity on the hillside. I had
never heard of this village before, and after today I can say I discovered a
new coin de Provence.
Le Partage des Eaux |
Best shot I could get of the privately-owned chateau |
Saumane-de-Vaucluse |
After such a wonderful day, it was hard for me to say
goodbye and to adequately thank them for how much today meant to me. I think it
is hard for people to realize how lonely it can be to come to a foreign
country, knowing no one, not having a car, and to try and be able to make
connections with people and do things. Today, I felt like I was somewhat part
of French everyday life, and it will be a day that I will remember forever.
Now, onto another 3 weeks of teaching!
*Translation: to find a job. Woof.
**Recall: In a previous post of when I first arrived, I
talked about how I feel like Belle from Beauty and the Beast with everyone
shouting “Bonjour” at me as I walk through town. That welcoming feeling has not
gone away, and will be one of the things I miss most when returning home to the
states.
***Translation: No no miss, this is my gift to you! As you
can imagine, I was torn between feeling grateful and wondering if he had put
something in my food….
****They call this the Venice of Provence because the river
Sorgue that runs through the town forms many canals in the alleyways between
the buildings.